Wednesday, April 13, 2011

How do you know?

How do you know when your ready to leave your baby at home even if its just with daddy for two hours. He doesn't nurse frequently anymore and doesn't usually nurse during those said hours not for nutrition anyways and it isn't during any sleeping hours so he wouldn't need me to put him to bed. I know he could handle it. What about me though? Can I handle it or will I go mad? I had a hard time leaving Z up until Ry was born. Somehow after Ry was born Z turned into a big kid and it was easier to leave him with daddy while I did what I had to do. I am so attached to my kids that not knowing exactly where they are and if they are safe scares me. I'm sure I have nothing to fear thats just how I work. Any possible worry that could go through your head goes through mine and it SUCKS! So tonight I might try and leave Ry with daddy while I work. Its only two ours. I can do it. I think.

1 comment:

  1. Aw. I am the same way. I never left L until H came to be and then it was like she was all of the sudden okay without me. (I think she was okay without me the whole time, but having a new life to focus on made it abundantly clear to me FINALLY.) I am sure Ry will be A-OK without you and tho you may worry, you will actually enjoy a little time to yourself.
    The only way to get over the worries, is to face them. Good luck!